Jan 23, 20238 min read

Home in a Feeling, Hole is a: Filling, Hope is a Form I-765

Updated: Jan 24, 2023

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There were fruits from the cupboard, et The Scent of Green Papaya by Trần Anh Hùng

Brandt Maina | RIOA wa RIOE, Gojireh, Dissipate Remembrance, No. 6/ 24 from "Prophetic Charcoal Dreams" (September 2022)

12 x 16 in

charcoal, chalk pastel, burns, stabs, ink on paper

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The painting on the left is titled:

A Home in a Box is an Idea— "Let there Be..."

There were fruits from the cupboard I am right "

Brandt Maina | RIOA wa RIOE, process photo for “Let there Be…”/There were fruits from the cupboard/I am right//I am left/ You gave me fruits from the cupboard/ “...IT IS GOOD”

dimensions vary (about 36 x 48 x 1.5 in)

acrylic and oil pastel on canvas

The painting on the right is titled:

"I am left

You gave me fruits from the cupboard

“IT IS GOOD”

They are both

36in x 24in

acrylics and oil pastels on canvas

My goal was to create two complimentary pieces that convey the ethos of your __________: you take ideas, concepts, hopes and dreams, and you create them into physical safe spaces for people to Be All They Can Be

The painting to the right represents the chaos of the planning phase: an idea constantly shifting and changing, a collection of lines, shapes, textures. Vague structures and creatures peeling like shadows in the Light

The painting to the left represents the peace and harmony of having completed Our project. The Joy of sitting in Our accomplishments: IT IS GOOD

Each individual painting is balanced in all directions and can be hung and rotated whichever orientation one desires. I love offering the option to collectors of my work — it’s 4 paradigm paintings in 1

Shifting

All perspectives are free and welcome— something I feel is an integral part of your __________ and how you communicate with each other and your community and clie________

Brandt Maina | RIOA wa RIOE, kitchen view for “Let there Be…”/There were fruits from the cupboard/I am right//I am left/ You gave me fruits from the cupboard/ “...IT IS GOOD”

dimensions vary (about 36 x 48 x 1.5 in)

acrylic and oil pastel on canvas

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What if I told you

A baby hippo rolling in mud.

Close your eyes and see His tiny little gaiety and glee

Now

Doesn’t that warm a marshmallow right through your depression, Baby Buddy?

And,

Not that there's a competition or anything,

but,

My Patronus is cuter than yours

Brandt Maina | RIOA wa RIOE, detail from Gojireh, Dissipate Remembrance, No. 6/ 24 from "Prophetic Charcoal Dreams" (September 2022)

12 x 16 in

charcoal, chalk pastel, burns, stabs, ink on paper

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What if I told you I thought I made a beautiful gift

And it was rejected I thought I made a beautiful gift But yet Beauty is in the eye of the intention And intentions haven’t mattered since 2016

And we've lost Our breath since,,, So there’s that…

Brandt Maina | RIOA wa RIOE, Gojireh, Dissipate Remembrance, No. 6/ 24 from "Prophetic Charcoal Dreams" (September 2022)

12 x 16 in

charcoal, chalk pastel, burns, stabs, ink on paper

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12:13am 12.12.22

I am reconnecting with my ancestors I AM BREATHING INTO MY BONES I AM AWAKENING EVERY CELL I am focusing all of my energy into positivity

I woke up this morning

Still present was Discomfort

The impossibly tight stomach cramp I took to bed with me last night

“Uh-oh,” I thought, “Ow, that still really hurts. Ouch, Charlie…” My anxiety did not improve it “Dang…” Glancing at four numbers, I had slept through the virtual sound bath I had hoped would start my Sunday

“Ouch” Digging fingers into the left meat of my abdomen It hurt more as I sat on the toilet Google Search: What side is the appendix?

*sucking in my teeth

Ouch

Google Search: Signs of appendicitis

Flush

Wash Scrub Wash Rice toasted on the stovetop stored in a small cotton sack that once held precious stones and crystals from Cold River Mining

Patron Shop Local Buy Use Now Us

Brandt Maina | RIOA wa RIOE, The Fossilized Gemstones, from Next You are Going to Pull the Film Advance Lever (December 2021)

dimensions vary

digital scan of 35mm film

Two 200mg Ibuprofen A granola bar gulps of water and A Wish

I went back to bed this morning and remembered the night I almost gave up Sitting in the exact same position, two pillows stacked behind my back A Warm Canvas Rice sack above the left skin of my pelvis Fingers massaging Deeper Digging “MH!!” I started to think about who to call

The spaces between starting sentences Abandoned to the Universe, I find myself reaching out to practically strangers You You there You there reading this right now Yes, you When did you start to Love me, if at all? When did I become more than the idea of a person, in your mind? When did you start to pray, “Oh, God, I hope he makes it. Please, God, I hope he makes it.” Have you ever doubted you would make it? What did it feel like? Did you have health insurance? No, seriously, do you have health insurance? If you don’t it’s not your fault It’s called Health Inequity and it is breathing the air right out of Our mouths Did it start to hurt when you couldn’t touch me and comfort the pain in Our body What is communion as the Present sharing of Flesh "Relax," he said, appearing in soft dreams "Let go of your Fear Flesh is flesh and you are here with me, We Here Now Floating in the Enlivening miasma of Our Entangled Intentions Here, In Spirit Growing Soil

Blessed as those who share in in each other's intimacy, Breathe

Lift Lift Life For the kingdom of heaven is Being, Seen

I am focusing all of my energy into positivity

I slowly fell into a sleep so heavy it threatened the sweet of my soul with fanatic teleportations A dream singing steeper, steeper... The wonders of Modern Pharma-ly Jay in the kitchen, srrrapping the fresh of a law chicken I am focusing all of my energy into positivity

Brandt Maina | RIOA wa RIOE, detail from Gojireh, Dissipate Remembrance, No. 6/ 24 from "Prophetic Charcoal Dreams" (September 2022)

12 x 16 in

charcoal, chalk pastel, burns, stabs, ink on paper

Swish

If fishes were horses, I would have health insurance I can feeling it coming in the air

I stopped digging into myself I slithered deeper

DEEP, DEEP into the deep beep never-ending, reckle-- Peep, Inside my inner pools,

I watched the pain dissipate Honk Lift and Laugh

Brandt Maina | RIOA wa RIOE, Liquorice Pizza, Innit?, from Licorice Pi (December 2021)

dimensions vary

digital scan of 35mm film

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2:21pm 12.12.22 I am shifting all of my energy back on to a positive direction I am flowing freely 2:22

I am exactly where I am meant to be, doing exactly what I am meant to be doing

There is nothing more powerful in Our Universe than the awareness of Its own breath

Inhale

Hold it

I AM HERE I AM, I AM

Exhale Oh, yes, yes Yes, sweet child

We must insist on breath work It is the language to True Freedom SureFire

Flaps and tongues yearning for each other I AM the Ancestors that danced with the First Flame True Freedom I think I thought, 'Breathe breath… And so, I AM

Here

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8:27 03.01.23 “I am focusing all of my energy into p--” I’ve stopped doing that — turns out that’s a disease with a very funny name Toxic Positivity INHAAAAAAAAAALEEE HOLD IT AND PROCESS… EXHALEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE…. (rinse and repeat as needed) ---------------------------------------------------------- There's a fourth color on either side of the blue dash Breath Work, Meditation, Mindfulness… Locals will tell you that it is the number one toothpaste recommended by dentists world wide Yuppy Puppies will inform you that it full of fluoride Then they’ll aim to sniff your butt Due to their short furry legs, the little doggies will miss their mark, and wet the back of your knee with their nose All the while scratching your calf as they carelessly clamor up your leg to get a really soft stiff whiff Puppers and Doggos Against Toxic Positivity False Uppers and True Lowe’s That’s trademarked now, you can’t steal it They can steal your _________________

But they can’t steal your breath

Ope, wait, they already did that: " Breathe, Don’t Breath, Breath, Can’t Eroding community Stealth, they stole Our Home

“Our Home is in Each Other”

a haiku by RIOA wa RIOE, written during OHEA class, Jan 17, 2023

haiku for you

haiku for you,

That’s Juan Hot Dish haiku for you!

Love and Light

Brandt Maina | RIOA wa RIOE, always? always. , from Next You are Going to Pull the Film Advance Lever (December 2021)

dimensions vary

digital scan of 35mm film

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Inhale long and sweet Exhale fast

Inhale longer still Exhale really slowly INHAAAAAAAAAAAAALE

Exhale slowly

INHAAAAAAAAAAAAALE INHALE HOLD

Hold Exhale slow and long through the mouth

INHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALE More More

HOLD IT HOLD IT HOLD IT for far too long

HOLD IT Feel the air ringing into your rib cage

Exhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaale long and slow Exhale Exhale what little is left, exhale some more INHALEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeee HOLD They may steal your Land They may take your Children They may gather your dignity into a Ziplock baggie And hold the plastic sack of sheep over your face... Doggy Poo by Yiruma

But you know what, Baby Buddy They cannot seal Our ________________

INHALE Exhale slow and long

Heath is a state of physical, mental, and social-wellbeing What is communion The Present sharing of Breath Laugh and Life Dare to Pair The Air with Our unhoused neighbors The Air with the Our poor The Air with Our lost Their system has many traps The Air, The Air, The Air of the most neglected the sweetest miasma of all Regal and Rare

the Shattering of Class et Clean Air How many coughs before I separate myself from you How many coughs before I scoff You Lower Lesser Unworthy

Unclean Unclean

Uncle, Cough Oh, you’re choking on your own saliva? Oh, yeah, lol, no yeah, lol, yeah, lol, no same You are Clean

Everyone is going to get a wash Everyone?

Everyone

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Inhale

Exhaleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Breath in as many new and expensive ways as you can Discover the ever expanding permitter of your Freedom “NUH UH — what if they... What if I die... Where’s Our breath then?” It sits 'neath the trees, Baby Buddy It sits and sighs in Her leaves and needles It blossoms in the nestle of His long, long thorns The Acacia Tree whispering, 'The Secrets of the Jacaranda' “Oh, Sister, where did you come from?” “You see, you see.

They've shaken Our Land. They've shaven Our Children. And now...," She shivered, Her Tongue Dancing in the Flame,

“... Now, I can only think in the language that stole my Mother’s... ” Purple tears tear off Her finger tips Sacrificing Her Divinity to clothe the Earth beneath Her, "Muoroto witũ wa kwĩhumba ũmũndũ mwerũ no mũhaka ũkorũo ũrĩ gũtĩithia Jehova no ti kũheo ngumo nĩ andũ." Are We Even Okay?

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INHALE So on and so forth Keep Going I believe in you

Brandt Maina | RIOA wa RIOE, detail from Gojireh, Dissipate Remembrance, No. 6/ 24 from "Prophetic Charcoal Dreams" (September 2022)

12 x 16 in

charcoal, chalk pastel, burns, stabs, ink on paper

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I AM Focussing my Energy into the Present Breath

That’s all

Nothing more, nothing less Abundance is a test

I AM Here

What if I told you

I am letting go of everything and nothing all at the same time Truly, truly I tell you the solemn Truth

I AM Focussing my Energy into the Present Breath

---------------------------------------------------------- 22.02.23 11:43pm Oh, hey

You You there You there reading this right now Yes, you When did I start to Love You? When did we start to pray, “Always? "Yes, Baby Buddy. Always" 23.02.23 12:39am I AM Here Happy, Healthy, and Whole

Brandt Maina | RIOA wa RIOE, Gojireh, Dissipate Remembrance, No. 6/ 24 from "Prophetic Charcoal Dreams" (September 2022)

12 x 16 in

charcoal, chalk pastel, burns, stabs, ink on paper

_______________________________________________________________________________________ No one Here is allergic to the Grass No one Here is allergic to the Sun Flies fish in the tea Birds sing in the Three And I am a cricket Trrrik trrrrik trik Drinking the Milk Loss of a Papaya Tree We are One All Dirt is Dirt - "ekphrastic" from Proverbs of Those People Over There by RIOA wa RIOE Do not go gentle into that good blight,

Gold Chaos should burn and shave at rose of gray;

Page, sage angst the frying of the Light Look around Now have I fell and eaten The shine on the petals enhances the flavor Pan All Dark is Dark Rest, Delight in Joyful Pleasure and Love All Light is Light Oh, Rama